It's official: I'm having surgery, probably in about two weeks. This will be my second biggest surgery, and my first with a new doctor. It will include cauterization and excision of endometriosis, nerve ablation/neurectomy, possible bowel resection and/or ureter repair, and perhaps a gortex device to stop my right ovary from getting stuck off in the middle of nowhere as it is want to do.
Until then, I am in such unbearable pain, constantly, that I have to be on medication nonstop.
I lost my job today because of issues related to my medical condition. That hurts, I'm not going to lie.
This puts me searching for a job with surgery in just a couple weeks - and who's going to hire me knowing I'll be out for at least a week very soon?
But if I wait until after I recover to get a job, I won't be able to pay a very important bill and it could have dire consequences for my future, for years. Could even affect my ability to adopt.
How's that for irony... the disease that causes infertility, that causes many people to choose adoption, has become so complicated that it may actually indirectly prevent me from adopting as well.
So I'm having a down day. If you have any extra prayers, I would really appreciate them. I need this surgery to get here fast and I need it to work.
In fact, I'm counting down the days.
I really just want to live a normal life. Everything was going to be okay after this surgery and once again, my life has come crashing down around me. Sometimes I really have no idea what path God wants me to be traveling down...
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